Dizzy Dee

Life sometimes takes strange and unexpected turns. Just when things seem to get into a manageable routine everything goes upside down. Just when you think you’re one step ahead, everything turns against you. Seems like my week was like that - maybe the last two weeks. Whenever I start to feel proud of myself, there’s someone pointing out something that I could still do. Something that I could look into - to better myself. And that’s when I feel like giving up. When they don’t see my efforts. When they don’t notice my hard work. When they don’t care if I’m seriously exhausted. I suppose those things happen to keep me humble. To teach me to think of MORE things to do. But more so, different ways of thinking. Encouraging me to change my mindset [sometimes I don't even know what that is] I tend to adjust my mindset a lot. Sometimes I’m more giving of myself - other times I just couldn’t be bothered. Some days I think its important to be nice, other days I think its more important to be honest, and be the way I feel. This week though I put in a lot of effort. I worked late every single night. I tend to work better when there aren’t so many people at work. Maybe I’m just generally irritated? I need this coming weekend so badly… I know this is probably one of my most boring posts, but maybe the people who know me will understand a bit better. I just hope that I can relax this weekend. Some weekends I tend to think about work all the time - how I’m going to do things in the upcoming week and so on. I hate that. It spoils my whole weekend. Like my mind won’t switch off. And also the people I spend my time with don’t appreciate my absent mindedness… Oh well… I hope I can get some kind of stability at work. At least I’m hoping at this stage. Hoping, and not giving up. I don’t ever want to be depressed, and though easier said than done, I believe its possible. I tend to make things worse for myself though, and that doesn’t help. But its good to have a positive area in my life. My relationship is amazing. Things have picked up really well, and we’re going steady again. I won’t let work interfere with that… But it does put a bit of a strain on the relationship. I’m very insecure at work at the moment. Though I probably have more knowledge, and have worked there longer, there’s an older person who is trying to outrun me, outsmart me, and outwit me. She wants to beat me to a promotion, and Its just stressful. Specially because people tend to trust older people easier - they have more experience, but hey, what about me ??? I worked hard to get where I am - and now what? I just did that for nothing? I don’t hope so. After today things don’t look too bad, but I’m not letting my guard down, cause that’s when they catch you - when you’re least expecting it. Oh well… I suppose there’s nothing much I can do. I can just carry on working my arse of… and I can hope…

I’ve seen it! The new Pink Panther movie is @ the cinema’s and I went to see it on Saturday. I haven’t seen the first version, so I can’t compare the two with each other, but this one was excellent. This guy had me in stitches right through the movie. The sound booth [I can't find a clip for this],the hamburger, and Zanya’s [Beyoncé] “dancers” - just to mention three…
LOL - I loved it… you just have to see it. Though I’m not a fan of embarrasing
humour, I walked out of the cinema wiping the tears from my eyes. If I had listened to the critics’ reviews I would have missed out on alot - next time I won’t be reading the critics’ reviews, but rather the
users’ reviews. A while ago I saw “The Wedding Crashers”, and it was pathetic… I hated every minute of it. In the first ten minutes I knew it wasn’t my type of movie, but I decided to give it a fair chance [which I regret now, because it was a waste of time]

Pink Panther on the other hand is the type of movie that I’ll watch again and again - and maybe even buy the DVD. If you like comedy this is definately a thumbs up!!
If I had to give it a rating then it’d have to be a or A+ - ITS THE BEST!

–Watch the Trailer--

So I finally got my phone!!!

[Nokia N70]

I’ve been waiting for it for just over a week now, and if I didn’t go to the shop on Friday afternoon after work, I would still not have it. I’ve been checking out the spex for it on [ http://www.gsmarena.com ] for longer than a month now, and though I would’ve like the N80 rather, I decided to take the N70. GSM Arena is the most user friendly site I could find, though its down at the moment - I’m hoping that this is just due to maintenance, because I could find reviews there for all the phones that I could think of. Detailed spec sheets, photo’s and customer reviews - complete with ratings on design, functionality, etc.

Now about the phone…: As soon as I have taken some photo’s, I’ll post them - I’ve only taken one, and its quality was actually not too bad! I’m going to try it out with flash /without flash, and with different lighting. Besides the camera the phone also has good sound quality, and its software is compatible with Microsoft Word documents, PowerPoint slideshows, Excel spreadsheets, as well as PDF files - all of that on a phone!?? Aparantly there’s alot of software available to download - all kinds of fancy gadgets to keep people like me busy, and to keep my mind of the miserable things in life - [refer to my previous post] I’ll keep you posted on the pro’s and con’s as I go along - I have to get to know the phone for myself first.

If you know me, you’ll know my boyfriend - or at least his name – for those of you who don’t know him, from now on I will refer to him as Jay. I’m all alone this weekend, and though I just got a new phone it doesn’t make me feel better. I was suppose to be fine. Just handle it like an adult - spend some time by myself, but somehow I cannot. Everything I do reminds me that I want to be with the person I love, and I’m not. I miss him so much. They went away for the weekend - [the guys that is] - for a bachelor’s weekend of a friend. I’m sure they’re enjoying it, but its not really amusing to sit here @ home and just, well… have a boring life. I know I have things to do, but I don’t want to. I don’t want to do my php thingies. I don’t want to read. I don’t want to visit anyone all by myself. I just want to mope. Sit around and feel sorry for myself. Maybe even sleep through the rest of the time. My sister came to visit, and that kept me busy for a while, but now I’m sitting here, and I can’t even write an e-mail cause all I can think is ‘oh I miss him so damn much’. It feels like I’m split in half. In a way I suppose its a good sign, cause it means that I’m really attached to Jay, which is something I believe is good. I can make it through a normal work week without seeing him, but this is just too much. I thought about going to visit my friend who recently had a baby, and it was kind of planned in my mind, but this morning just dragged past, and by 12pm I got out of my pajamas and that’s when my sister got here. For tomorrow I have a ‘date’ with another friend, so that will get me to do something. Last weekend was one of the nicest ones I had in a long time. We went on a ‘breakfast run’ had a picnic, and climbed a mountain, will post some of the pix as soon as I get them. For the rest I don’t have anything to tell you. I’m working on Monday - even though its a public holiday on Tuesday… Oh well… At least I’ll get some time off later in the year. I just couldn’t be bothered to take leave for Monday. Tonight I’ll stick around here [by the PC] and write some more, or maybe just surf some blogs on BlogMad [my credits are a bit low] Remember to ask me for invites if you want to see what the fuss of BlogMad is about - I’m telling you its worth it.

Hope you all have a fab weekend…

So I got these pix of pretty neat shopping bags
[yet again, from one of my faithful e-mailing friends]
Not only do they have eye catching images on them, but they’re also a phenomenal way to advertise!
Love it!

[I brought it back for another round, incase you missed it, or just loved it as much as I do] Can you see what it is?

I got these photo’s from a friend via e-mail.
Very interesting… Can you see what that thing is the ocean is?
Kinda like a black ’something’?
I couldn’t figure it out…
Till I saw the next couple of pics…

Is it maybe a horse? A buck? Err…. No… Look! Its a Roo!!! Awe… Isn’t this just too sweet for words??

Oh look, he’s looking @ us!? [Doesn't seem very amused by the photographer]

And so he decides to migrate!? Or maybe he was just in the mood for some seafood?
I thought these photo’s were just sooo unusual, that I’d post them here…

Can you imagine even seeing a roo on the beach? LOL…
I want a baby kangaroo now… :/ Pity they grow up though…

Yes! BlogMad has launched! Even though BlogMad is currently still invite only, you can drop by the FORUM and ask for an invite, you might just get one! I’ve helped with the Beta Testing, but when I started, I got a new blog (with WORDPRESS - duh). I’m proud to announce that my blog’s stats have grown from 0 views on February 1st, to an astounding 47 views today!! If you need traffic for your blog BlogMad

Apart from the traffic - my blog has also been ranked as an 8!!? (That’s 8 out of 10 incase you were wondering!) I also got a couple of commets on my SWIMMING ROO - thanks Craig for that! BlogMad has also been of great use for new ideas. When surfing other peoples blogs, I am constantly reminded of what I want to write about, and I’m truly inspired by the amazing amount of creativity in the people I share the net with.

Here then, is a snippet out of the latest newsletter…
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