I Should…BREATHE

You know, these last few weeks of my life have probably been the most hectic ever. I don’t think I’ve ever stressed so much. I have tons of things to remember. Lists are great, but they you have remember where you put those, and what the hell it means when I wrote “serviette rings” – did I write that because I didn’t have enough, because I have to pick them up, drop them off, or WHAT? And who is suppose to help me with this mess?

I have so many people who offer to help, and I really wish they could, but sorting out the mess in my head is something only I can do. I need to sit down and make a plan … think of things bit by bit, analyze it, and then get a plan to get everything done. Thing is, I don’t have time? I have 8 days left, I know, but I work 8 hours a day, and I spend another hour and a half traveling each day (if I’m lucky). When I get home I have to cook and clean, and organize everything in the new home which I haven’t already organized, and then I’m so exhausted that I need to sleep else I won’t be able to get up the next morning at 5am.

You may have noticed that my sentences are extremely long and don’t have much punctuation marks in them but that is exactly how I feel – like I just can’t get a break – like I just have to keep going without being able to stop and take a breath, and wait till I feel like I can carry on.

I need to plan a handover at work for the time that I’ll be out of the office for the honeymoon, and right now, I don’t have time for that either, I just have too much work to do as it is, and I feel like I can’t keep my head above water.

I just can’t wait until its the big day, and I can relax and enjoy everything. I just can’t wait anymore.

I should’ve taken more leave for next week, instead of just taking Friday off, and I will still see if I can get something like that, but I bet it won’t be easy, since I still have so much to do at work.

I hope you all are not getting bored yet You might ask why I keep blogging if I have so many things to do, and so little time, but this is my little piece of sanity and I can truly vent here. With a cup of tea or some water, my music, and just sharing my thoughts and frustrations… It makes my days bearable.

Some people feel alive when they deal with stressful circumstances like these – its what they live for. Me? I don’t like all this planning and that. I’m a ’stop-and-smell-the-flowers’ kind of girl. I like to do what I FEEL like, and right now, I feel like doing absolutely nothing.

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