When I Was Little
When I was little things always seemed bigger and better and fancier than what they are now. I can remember the first time I revisited the pre-school that I went to - I was so surprised to find that the biggest jungle gym was hardly 2 meters high. Also, I went to the show (sort of like a carnival) of my hometown, which was always a great event - and I was so disappointed, and actually terrified with the rusty rides in the amusement area. Everything seemed to have deteriorated since I was little. Things are just less colourful, less clean, and less wonderful. The other day I was driving through Johannesburg city, and it was just such an awful sight. Like poverty and pollution has taken over.
I wish I could see the world through the eyes of a child again. Just once more relive the incredible excitement of going to a flee-market - or even to the mall, just so I can go and look at new toys - or just for the event even. I wonder if our country has been like this all along, or has it deteriorated? Maybe its NOT my perspective - my cynicism that’s shading my view with dirt and rust and murder. I still wish that I could once be a child. Carefree and happy. I am happy - make no mistake. But not the kind of happiness that has no boundries like when you’re a child. I miss that.
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that sucks!
there is definitely something on the front page that takes a while to load. not sure what it is. :/ just fyi.
Well, sadly, you know that it’s just been that way all this time. We just become older, a bit wiser, and a bit more knowledgable, and perspectives change. I also like to think that it’s because we get a little taller too.
There are lessons to be learned from children as adults though. It’s like you said, It would be great to be a child again, to not have responsiblity, or just to feel free.
You have to wonder…when you were a child, all you wanted to be was grown up, and now that you’re grown up, you want to be a child again. Vicious cycle, isn’t it?
Yeah it is a vicious cycle, circle … Sad though
Will look into it still as soon as someone can tell me what’s making it so slow 
Sorry bout the slow loading. I had a couple of other people check, and they said it was fine… Maybe its those crazy cats though…
I was just saying ALMOST this exact same thing to someone today!! *hugs* I have a wonderful life and I am AMAZINGLY happy and lucky and content but I do miss the KIND of completely unrestrained JOY of childhood!! I’m glad you wrote this entry you said it way better than I could have xxx
Try and recapture it …… go fly a kite, walk barefoot in the grass , blow bubbles , wiggle your toes in the sand and build sandcastles on the beach
Blessings X
I think it continues throughout your life. You see things differently every 5 years or so. It is actually what keeps things interesting. If we always viewed things the same way it would get boring. It is always hardest to appreciate things while you are living through it, but looking back it always seems so special.
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