Blue Weekend.

If you know me, you’ll know my boyfriend – or at least his name – for those of you who don’t know him, from now on I will refer to him as Jay. I’m all alone this weekend, and though I just got a new phone it doesn’t make me feel better. I was suppose to be fine. Just handle it like an adult – spend some time by myself, but somehow I cannot. Everything I do reminds me that I want to be with the person I love, and I’m not. I miss him so much. They went away for the weekend – [the guys that is] – for a bachelor’s weekend of a friend. I’m sure they’re enjoying it, but its not really amusing to sit here @ home and just, well… have a boring life. I know I have things to do, but I don’t want to. I don’t want to do my php thingies. I don’t want to read. I don’t want to visit anyone all by myself. I just want to mope. Sit around and feel sorry for myself. Maybe even sleep through the rest of the time. My sister came to visit, and that kept me busy for a while, but now I’m sitting here, and I can’t even write an e-mail cause all I can think is ‘oh I miss him so damn much’. It feels like I’m split in half. In a way I suppose its a good sign, cause it means that I’m really attached to Jay, which is something I believe is good. I can make it through a normal work week without seeing him, but this is just too much. I thought about going to visit my friend who recently had a baby, and it was kind of planned in my mind, but this morning just dragged past, and by 12pm I got out of my pajamas and that’s when my sister got here. For tomorrow I have a ‘date’ with another friend, so that will get me to do something. Last weekend was one of the nicest ones I had in a long time. We went on a ‘breakfast run’ had a picnic, and climbed a mountain, will post some of the pix as soon as I get them. For the rest I don’t have anything to tell you. I’m working on Monday – even though its a public holiday on Tuesday… Oh well… At least I’ll get some time off later in the year. I just couldn’t be bothered to take leave for Monday. Tonight I’ll stick around here [by the PC] and write some more, or maybe just surf some blogs on BlogMad [my credits are a bit low] Remember to ask me for invites if you want to see what the fuss of BlogMad is about – I’m telling you its worth it.

Hope you all have a fab weekend…

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