Dizzy Dee

I’ve started with the new job - its not too bad. They have everything organized - which I really like. I’m suppose to know exactly what do to, and when, still I feel a bit awkward. Like I’m slightly out of place? It’ll probably get better very soon, but now I’m still feeling ‘icky’.  Each of us has a comfort zone, and I’m currently not even close to mine.

The job itself seems OK - the tasks and all that, but I think it might get boring after some time. The people seem very kind, they’ve all come to say hello and introduce themselves, but I know I shouldn’t take that as too much of a sign. People are hardly ever nasty to others on their first day!! I wonder what their impression of me is. I’m really curious to find out how they perceive me, and how I come accross. Maybe they think I’m totally different from what I actually am - who knows? I just can’t seem to get over this strangeness - the feeling of not belonging here? Its probably just the newness of it all, but its not very nice.In the meantime I intend on getting to know the procedures and all that’s happening here. Each company has its own ways and habits, and this is totally different from what I knew before. In more than one way I wish it didn’t have to be like this, but I suppose being stretched like this is good, cause in the end it’ll force me to grow.I’ve been on the telephone in any case - answering calls (which is something that I really do not like), but the clients are really kind of rude.  I suppose that might only be the way I perceive them, but they don’t seem friendly.  No, ‘welcome’, or nothing.  Suppose they don’t even know that I’m new, and if they did, why should they care?I hope I can get a chance to write something more interesting soon — I need to sit down and relax, but that hasn’t happened lately. Tonight I have to go out about some freelance work I want to do, so it ain’t gonna happen today.